Edmonton is full of large evergreen trees. Spruce and pine floods my peripherals when I am driving around. There are many old houses and large spaces of vast, flat land. It’s refreshing to see so much land. And then, every once in a while, you drive through a part of the river valley and over the North Saskatchewan River. It excites me every time. It’s hard to look away from all the trees and the river.
I have settled in pretty well this first week. I’ve been able to see so many friends of Justin’s and a couple of my own which has been filling my heart up a lot. I’ve seen my very close friend Kailene a few times already and we have more plans again this week that I am really looking forward to. We are still getting used to the idea that we are not provinces away anymore. I’ve also been getting to know the various animals in my current household (Piper and George the cats, Winston the pug). It’s been really uplifting and exciting having all of them around at various times and bonding with each of them in different ways. Justin’s sister has also been really sweet and even made me a few decorations for my bedroom! I like my new surroundings a lot and the people around me.
It was helpful seeing many friends before leaving Toronto. I really needed that and I’m so grateful for who I was able to see. I feel really happy to be here, but I have to admit I’m missing home and my family. Today is probably the first time I am truly recognizing and acknowledging this feeling. I know it’ll get easier the more I adjust and the more that time goes on but right now, it’s gonna be a little hard at first. It really hit me after I talked to my grandma and brother on the phone. I wasn’t even really sure why I felt sad today until I finally just cried and thought, oh this is homesickness. I am missing things. I just really miss people and certain rituals and parts of my life that are changing. Not changing in bad ways, just changing, adapting, and evolving. I’m really quite happy but change, transition, or moves of all sorts are very hard and this is a big one.
I’ve also been really sick and that always makes me feel emotional and incompetent. So with my sickness combined with a lot of change, I’ve been curling up in cozy blankets, having ‘lots of tea, sniffing a bunch of peppermint / eucalyptus oils, getting really nice hugs, cuddling animals, and crying when I need to.